The Ladybug in My Window

I wanted to start off this blog with that beautiful song. As I have been so stir crazy here at the hospital, this song helps remind me that we are all children of God and He is so aware of us. I know as I go through this process, Heavenly Father is well aware of me.

So I have been here at LDS Hospital for over a month now. It sure feels like it! I get really stir crazy because right now it is just a waiting game for my transplant to take hold of my body. I need to build up my neutrophils (white blood cells that form your immune system). Right now I am at 300ish and they need to be at 500. So I am on my way. My doctors are really happy with my progress. I just need to practice patience. I am itching so bad to break out of here but I know it’s more important to be healthy.

I thought that because sometimes I get frustrated and down because I am stuck in this room, I thought I would think of all the tender mercies I have had since being here. I have never in my life felt so much love and support from others in my whole life! Like I’ve said before, the outpouring of prayers have been overwhelming and so appreciated. My doctors are amazing here and so are the nurses and CNAs. Everyone is like a big family and they genuinely care. Some of my nurses even snuck me outside even though I technically am not allowed yet (Shhhhh….don’t tell my doctors). I have the opportunity to sit out and feel the sun on my face for the first time in a month. Maybe that’s when the ladybug followed us in. It’s still in here and makes me smile every time I look at it. According to a recent poll on my Facebook account, having a ladybug in my room is very good luck. So I’ll keep her around.

I also have the opportunity to play with my son every day! Joe and I have fabulous family who brings Gray up to us. We get to have quiet family time and love on our son. He has gotten more used to the hospital so he doesn’t holler too much. He just loves to see his daddy and mommy, and that makes my heart melt. I have also seen many friends and felt their love through their visits. (Sorry if I have fallen asleep on you or been tired)

Elder Jeffery R. Holland said in this past conference something I thought was profound. He said “If for a while the harder you try, the harder it gets, take heart. So it has been with the best people who ever lived.” I know as hard as things get with being here in this situation, I know that other people have overcome it. Our Savior suffered everything for us, so He totally knows what I am going through. There is an end near and I am pushing towards it. I can’t wait to be home and be with my family again!